LIFE

Selamat pagi dunia..
this morning a decided to post something as i dont quite often update my blogs.
I am glad to be who i am, what i wear, how i talk, whom i mix with but i felt sorry for those poeple who tr best to fit in..pathetic.
Just be yourself la and be proud..heads up of who you are..
I am trying my best to live to the fullest and make a full use of my life.
I have been through bad and great experiance throughout my journey of life and that makes me grow mature and have a wider thought about what life is. it is not a simple thing and a person should learn and keep on learning everyday thay lived.
as i am too still learning and still making mistakes in my life.

have a great life people.
gotta bounce!

BabY.

This is my new born baby cousin, Muhammad Arief bin Mohd Zaini.

I've just welcomed a new cousin. It is always fun and i really love babies but after doing a little survey and observation i wasnt sure whether i want any kids of my own. i know it is a miracle that how from one person, another person could be born. but i am so scared of the pain and all the bleeding etc. it is totally not easy. it seems that man people have gone through this part even my mother, or else how come i am here right..as i always thinking about my own kids but now i am just not sure..ahahhaha..

I hope my guts will come back and i will think about having my own kids again.

Pray for me ya.

06/12/08

harini aku rasa floating je. aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku rasa macam ni and lately there's so many things that i've been thinking about. aku rasa susah jugak aku nak explain lebih precise ape sebenarnya yang aku fikir kan..but all i can say it's mainly about my life and my future ahead. i am actually blessed with a family yang sangat rapat with each other..uncles, aunties, nenek2 semua.. at least eventhough harini aku macam lain sikit, aku manage to tarik nafas lebih ok sedikit dan kurang berfikir..

lusa hari raya aidiladha so ramai la balik, kat rumah aku ada nenek, nenek dua, pakbusu,mak usu, aleia (cousin aku). we all semua buat some preparation untuk masak lauk2 hari raya ni..best, makan macam2.. but ade something missing in me.

lastly, selamat hari raya aidiladha.

have a great day!

What Do You Fantacize?

the proposal, the day when you tie the knot, life after marriage. after watching the bachelor, for only GOD knows how many times, so many things were running through my head. the movie actually about a man trying to get the woman to marry him in order to save his family business and there is a few things that got me thinking especially the part where his made some mistake in his proposal speech..ahahha..and that is what that made me think about how is my proposal would be?

i tink in our malay culture the proposal is more about the families meeting up and arrange somethings. how i actually wished that i could have a real weeding, romantic and memorable. the big day does not have to be big neither grand. its enough that it is nice, i got all my loved ones and friends around to capture my moments. i hope i could have a happy marriage, loving till the last days of our lives. holding hands when we are strolling and not being afraid to show it to people. i know it is abit not our culture because we are a little shy or conservative and especially in showing our effection towards our partners in public even in front of our families. but we got to do what we have to do in order to enhance our marred life. everyone have their point of view about marriage, what they fantacize for their big day. this is my fantasy, what i wanted. the most is i want both families welcome us in the family.

i am waiting for my day to come and i am praying hard that mine will be as how i picture it and we both be blessed.